It's been the saddest thing to lose this little guy that has been such a huge part of my life from his 10th week to his 15th year of life. He was my companion, my hanger-on, my listener, in other words, my permanent piece of attached velcro. He loved me unconditionally and he thought everything I said and did was important. In return I loved him enormously, filled all his needs, and took care of all his issues. In the end I walked him ever so very slowly. He was old and it took him a long time just to walk down the block. Frequently I would pick him up and walk him from one pee-mail spot to the next, so that he could check out other doggy activities as so many other dog owners would understand this.
Before I turn into a blubbering fool, I want to describe how my organizational system helped me cope with his death. Because I had already identified my actions, I could automatically refocus on something else and not wallow. At this point I could proactively go through my next action lists, busily achieving one thing after the other. After taking care of a few tasks, I would think about my dog and then refocus back on my action lists and vice versa. Using a mapping software (I use a free personal version) I also revisited my visions and goals, functions and commitments. With this new overview of my life, I added and deleted projects and actions.
My point is that if I had not been so pre-organized and not been so actively working on my life plan to begin with, I would have had a much harder time dealing with his sudden and unbelievably sad loss. Not only was I able to take my mind off my grief, but I was able to do it in such a positive way.
I miss you, Oskar.
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